I almost didn’t write today, on this last day of 2020. It seemed too overwhelming to process and to sum up the hardest year of our lives. Honestly, I’ve been trying to process and put into words over the last few weeks how I feel about 2020. Trying to put into words what I’ve learned and what this year has taught me is difficult.

This last week of December has actually been a really hard week. A lot of sad and hard things have happened. It seems like 2020 just won’t quit.

So, I’m not going to do that.

I did feel like it was important to document this day here and so I’m just going to share a bit of what’s on my heart.

Here’s What I’m Leaving Behind in 2020 and what I’m taking with me into 2021 (well, some of it anyway).

I’m leaving behind the need to Hustle.

In a year where everything literally stopped on a dime, I was shown clearly that I needed to get off the Hustle train. I read the The Ruthless Elimination of Hurry and it was the best book I read this year. I read it twice. Life changing.

I’m leaving behind the Fear.

I’m so, so tired of being afraid. This year was chaos and uncertainty and fear. Yes, when I thought things couldn’t get worse, they did. But guess what? God provided always. God was faithful always. God was my comfort always. He doesn’t want to me to fear.

I’m leaving behind Not Wearing Make Up.

Ok, I’m not going to wear it every day. I don’t think I need to. But, it just kind of makes me feel good about myself so I’m going to bring it back after many months of not wearing it (at least on Sundays).

Here’s What I’m Taking With Me Into 2021.

I’m taking with me my love of embroidery.

It started as a Shelter – In- Place hobby back it March. I’m hooked. I love it. I find it so relaxing.

I’m taking my love of Instagram into 2021.

I used to feel silly about being on Instagram and doing the IG stories. I did it anyways; but always second guessed myself. Then I realized it really brought me joy and it keeps me connected with people. And well, that’s reason enough. Next, I’m going to start doing Reels.

I’m taking my love of Nature into 2021.

I learned something huge about myself this year, HUGE. Being in nature is the one thing that really destresses me, gives me clarity and makes me feel really close to God. I was truly the happiest this summer when we went to Yosemite and on our National Parks Roadtrip.

And finally Baby Yoda. Baby Yoda is my Spirit Creature (He’s not an animal, so……) Andy bought me Baby Yoda (not the kids, me) during a time when I was feeling very sad and low. He just knew. That’s why he’s the best.

I don’t know what the hec is coming in 2021. I’m not even going to try to project or imagine. What I do know is I have my family and I have Jesus. Jesus is the only constant I truly need. That is the number one thing I’m taking into 2021.

His goodness.

His love.

His sovereignty.

Good bye 2020. Don’t the door hit ya on the way out!

Note: I’m posting this at 5 pm on Dec 31 but WordPress is dating my post as Jan 1st. Not sure why.